Monday, December 08, 2014
Refusing to Release 2014
War on Christmas
War on My Christmas
Admittedly, the holidays (I say "holidays" because I speak of the time from Thanksgiving to New Years) are kind of rough on me and have been for many years. I know it's rather childish, but since the loss of my mother when I was 14, the holiday season just doesn't feel or maintain the same joy. Sure, I've been able to pull it off for the kids and I love every minute of it, but at the same time, there is a darkness that accompanies the holidays. I can't seem to shake it, have no idea why in the heck it's there with such intensity and I really don't know if I will power through it and put it to bed before I leave this planet.
During this time of year, we all think about "home" and creating a "home" environment. For some, there is a big facade created where the house is decorated perfectly with Christmas trappings, the Scentsy has its holiday scents filling the air and the events for the days to come are rigidly planned and organized. And when the time comes, God help you if you miss one of your cues or you don't follow the Happy Holiday Script. On the other hand, there are places where there is no focus on pomp and circumstance, but rather a sanctuary where the very essence of Christmas is embraced. No one is afraid to share their love openly, no one cares what you wear - they just care that you're there. Those are the places we call "home." Many of those memories for me, those "home" moments, have taken place with my kids - all of them. I just wish that we could have those moments in my home state of Washington.
2014 is just about behind us...let's say goodbye in style and do what we struggle to do - just let it all go.